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2010-01-08T13:04:00.000-08:00

No more blogging and facebook. No more.

Thanks for reading.

Living dangerously

2010-01-07T13:38:00.000-08:00

Tuesday: Sent email to 8 cardio consultants to request for supervisor for elective.

Wednesday: Happy. One cardio consultant wants to meet me next wednesday.

Thursday: Stressed. 2 more cardio consultant wants to meet me and i'm thinking of agreeing.

Please don't let them find out i'm meeting all of them!

At least i'm less stressed up than kien wei is right now. He's being interrogated by 3 consultants about what he wants to do. Xp

I think elective is going to be a great time. Gonna research a bit more about my topic. At the end of all this i'll be an ECG pro! Goody!

most hardworking week

2010-01-06T05:14:00.000-08:00

i just spent 3 days in the hospital during my holiday. hardworking eh?

2009

2010-01-01T02:45:00.000-08:00

Its been an awfully long year. Now that i'm at the end of it, i can't help but say i've survived a really long year with many mishaps and finally emerging through the end of it, a better person. There are plenty more to improve on and that's exactly what i shall do for myself.

I've seen a lot of people this year, contrary to what i tell people that no one ever comes to aberdeen to visit me. Unfortunately, the person i would like to see most would never come all this way to see me. And even if she did, i'm not sure how i would react to that. X)

Here's a look at the whole year of 2009.

The person that i miss most in this foreign land still, would be my grandma. Not like any other women. She is an amazing woman and i absolutely miss her. Where every female has been somewhat disappointing Xp, she never will be. I miss you and the food you cook. Sorry I haven't been a good grandson. I wish that i would be able to say all this to her one day.

My dear family on the other side. When i was young, i never thought i would stop resenting them, because they were family but they were complete by themselves, unlike my very broken family. But i grew older, and saw that they were amazing people who treated me sincerely. And it has been so many years knowing them and seeing them grow old. Sometimes i am reminded when i see elderly patients, of how lucky i am to be able to know someone for this long. I miss grandpas house on chinese new year, with that bbq pork, beer and the sounds of mah jong.

This is the door of a very special place to me. It was this place at the park near my hostel where i said farewell to this spanish girl i knew. I think the problem with me is not that i can't find the right person to like but the problem is that i force myself to not like them and to forget about them because i was wishing that previous someone would someday come back. And that is a silly idea which i've come to realize, will not work for me.

I like this wall. If only i could still do something like this in whitehall. It would add a bit of coziness and character to my room.

I was walking around hong kong last week and saw so many shops on sale for gundams. Could have bought one but didn't have any money after buying some clothes and some food for housemates. Xp i guess 3 will have to do for now.

This picture was taken so long ago. This was the first week that we were here. Check out our hair. Looks like we just came out of an army camp. I think i could do a better job at cutting their hair. I should really charge!

Fluffy, i miss. This was the room in the hostel where i stayed for a few months. Funny thing about my room. It ALWAYS ends up being the gathering place, no matter how small or big. I wonder why.

I remember this! i called everyone on facebook and told them to look outside the window in the middle of the night. How i miss facebook! Haha. Maybe i should get back to it and waste my precious life on it.

Our last sport outing which was around half a year ago. My god! We need to exercise, no?

First day moving into this amazing house. Really glad we got this place. My room has changed immensely. A lot of people have come and go but i am still here and these 2 crazy guys are also here to stay. I am glad they are both staying with me and that they are both guys! No more girls please! Xp

The girl that changed a big part of me, how i act, speak, think. Thank you and i am sorry it has to be like this now.

I think i must have took a few hundred pictures of flowers in aberdeen. Probably time for me to get out of aberdeen. Funny thing is i should be in edinburgh right now but am afraid because i don't want to bump into that person there. There is only one thing left in the world that i am afraid to do and that is to see her. Because i wouldn't know how i would react.

Hanying came here a couple of times. Its nice to see old faces. And why is kien wei always with that expression even when he isn't drinking?

I must have spent a few hundred hours this year on skype with natalia and ellice combined. I think it is time i stop being so dependent on human relationship and start doing something good for my future.

If i spent a few hundred hours on skype, then i must have spent thousands of hours on Dota! Scary! Remember that 2 week summer break we spent in MY room?!

And probably another million hours eating in my room. Our roasting weekends.

Lesser than a million hours drinking booze and getting stupid. And of course me ending in tears and hugging random men. Xp

My personal achievement this year. Cycling to stonehaven. Would do it again sometime soon.

Now i understand what we are suppose to be. I think we would make good friends like me and kien wei and victor!

That's me and kien wei and a piece of bbqed victor (his spare tire).

My dear speedy, i love you. Got into an accident yesterday because some stupid driver pushed me to the side of the road and i skied for 2 seconds. Ended with 2 big bruises on my butt and knee and my dear speedy's rubber handle slightly torn. Grrr ...

I think any guy should feel lucky to have you around. And i do feel lucky you were around.

It is taking me more than 10 minutes to think how to describe us. And i still dont know how to.

Sigh, that was a fun time to have friends visiting me. Makes me feel worth it, every bit of hard work i've put into it. It feels like i am a worthy human for a bit of care. Plus, you do put a smile on my face when i think of you. For that, i want to thank you.

Fight it! It's all in your mind!

My dear sister, i miss you soooooo much. That hong kong trip was a nightmare and the only thing i look forward to was you and papa and grandpa. Thank you for all the money and time you spent on me. I hope to see you soon. Feels sad to realize you're so far away.

It was a turbulent year but i've learned so many things that took so much of my time. It took me a year to realize i am a terrible person and all the terrible things that i did. It took me one year to realize nothing i do would make up for all the wrong decisions that i made. And it took me one year to realize nothing comes to me if i dont put some effort into it, whether it being friends, family, work, love.

For now, i want to be a better, stronger me, whom everyone would be proud to call as a friend, brother, son, grandson. And I just want to do the right thing and be proud of myself and never have to say sorry to myself.

-THE END OF 2009-

hk

2009-12-30T08:40:00.000-08:00

london airport during christmas. my first flight from aberdeen to london was delayed 3 hours because the landing strip was frozen. the next flight from london to hk was delayed 6 hours because the plane was frozen. what else could go frozen?!

tvb drama cop shows. *in canton* 2384 poh kou! hang pit!

*in canton* cheng lei yam kah feh.

my dear sis stopped balding.

i will look a hundred soon.

hk, land of desserts.

time square. stupid place.

another moment being mistaken for her bf. babi!

this is where god of cookery was filmed, i think...

funny stuff! look like octopus. reminds me of pat tat tung, octopus card.

i think this is where jackie chan climbed up the building in the new police story.

this is good stuff. iced sugar fruity candy.

didn't like hong kong people one bit.

glad to have seen my dad, granpa and sister for a few days.

am missing all of you already.

tolong

2009-12-30T03:31:00.000-08:00

I should be paid for cutting all my housemates hair and for these pictures.

new year

2009-12-29T16:42:00.000-08:00

alone

nothing to write

eyes

2009-12-13T08:27:00.000-08:00

After 22 years, i realize i have brown eyes. Bizarre!

06/12/2009

2009-12-13T04:14:00.000-08:00

Now that I put this here, I'll never lose this moment.

I should study!

2009-12-11T14:14:00.000-08:00

Just spent 1 hour editing 2 picture and studying. So not effective. But learnt some new things about photoshop. Make up digitally. Smudging, eye colour replacement, patching, sharpening, colour boosting, hair transplant, lipstick, eye bag removal, tweaking black and white balance, teeth whitening, eyebrow tweaks, skin repair.

Took over the plastic surgeons job. Xp

antihypertensives as easy as ABCD

2009-12-10T11:02:00.000-08:00

courtesy of british hypertension society

Speedy

2009-11-29T05:18:00.000-08:00

its almost reaching a month since i've been in inverness. and guess wat, i bought a bike! please don't ask me how much it is! Xp

her name is speedy! and i love her! another wife for the collection. so now i stand between cammy, lappy and my newest wife, speedy. X)

i went out for a long long ride today. ooo, did i mention that it snowed in the morning. it was bloody cold.

now that i have speedy, i look forward to the next morning so i can go out with her. X)

inverness city itself is a gorgeous little town. the people here are much nicer than in aberdeen. they spend more smiles for passer bys.

they certainly love their bridges!

this is the caledonian canal. this is the best picture i've taken in inverness yet, though not very good. Xp

i've to pass through 2 rivers every morning to get to gp. it's either an hour walk or 2 busses to get there. maybe i'll cycle tomorrow. hmm ... X)

procurator fiscal

2009-11-24T06:31:00.000-08:00

GP asks me: Have you heard about Harold Shipman? If you want to practice in the UK, you must know about Harold Shipman.

Me: Whaatttt?

GP: As a homework, I want you to find out who Harold Shipman is.

*in a car witht the GP heading back after a crematorium visit.

Oooo kayyy .... hm.

Who is Harold Shipman?

something to look forward to

2009-11-22T11:06:00.001-08:00

I am going to own you one day!

cycling

2009-11-21T04:23:00.000-08:00

i tried my GP's racing bicycle yesterday and cycle a few miles. and i like it. now im looking at some cheap bicycles but the cheapest is 200+ pounds. sigh. forget it huh.

saturdays are so quiet. X(

the worst morning

2009-11-17T00:56:00.000-08:00

it was a really bad morning. i woke up at 6 to make lunch, packed it and forgot to bring it to gp.

i took the bus at 750 and left my gloves somewhere at the bus station.

i reached gp and waited for the district nurse for 30 minutes and she cancelled the day for me.

so im stuck here in front of the computer and my itchy mind wanted to look at caryns blog.

now i have a picture of her and her bf stuck in my head. and its killing me.

help.

wants to get drunk

2009-11-15T12:51:00.000-08:00

anyone up for it?

i miss ...

2009-11-14T15:05:00.000-08:00

i miss a dear old friend whom i stayed with for many years. someone whom i ate hundreads of meals with. someone whom i've done stupid things with, drawing my back, midnight walk down to the water dispenser.

i've met many people since you but every single person felt wrong and i compare each with what we use to be. now i cant sleep or study because i cant stop thinking. and my heart feels quizzy. this sucks. 18 months without seeing you, how did i manage. i wish ....

yea ...

2009-11-02T15:07:00.000-08:00

yay ... hopefully i'll get a new pair of reading glasses soon. dah bosan jadi buta!

study study study

2009-11-01T08:57:00.000-08:00

5 more days to exams. 6 more days to inverness.

something has changed

2009-10-25T08:05:00.000-07:00

Something has changed in me this autumn. I am studying more, facebooking less, blogging almost close to nil and drinking slightly more than usual. There are 2 cups of crisp clear liquid and one of it is vodka, hopefully a successfull remedy for sleepless nights. Thinking too much but nothing good is coming out of it. I hate this feeling of regret.

I'll be moving to Inverness for GP posting next month on the 7th for 5 weeks. I am actually looking forward to it because i figure I'll be able to study for the mocks exam. Although i know there's a slight chance to go bonkers being all alone up north in that cold city.

I can see the leaves falling, the perfect scenery for a photoshot but i have no one to take picture of now. Grr ....

Kevin got burned again, good thing its only a first degree burn in the heart. I feel like a coward for walking off something although i know it will only end badly for me. From today, i shall fight all the urge to contact natalia. This moment here .... is the moment where i feel i am most useless.

But i know, just like the oil burns on my hands, i will heal with time, a long time maybe. hmm...

... turning over a new leaf ...

2009-10-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

The past week was the most mind torturing week with a girl I've ever gone through but now that it's passed by so quickly, I wish it lasted longer. It was crazy trying to resist everything that this girl was. Its nothing that words can describe. Those smiles and the way she does things, and the smart person she was. I guess the hardest part was to say goodbye to someone that I thought was perfect, and so I didn't say goodbye when she left in the bus. That was stupid, I should have because we might not meet again.

And if anyones wondering if i slept with her, I didn't. Time to be a good boy after all the bad things I've done. Hmm ... i think i'm madly in love with this spanish girl but i know time will fade the memories of me in her mind. Maybe its for the better but let me enjoy this company while it last, before the distance takes another friend away from me again. I am amazed at how much self control I have and she was amazed as well. I only hope that this good impression that I've made will stay with her for a very long time.

!@#$%#!

2009-10-21T06:51:00.000-07:00

this morning, i walked to the hospital under the freezing rain, at 830 morning to attend a cardio clinic.

cardio clinic cancelled.

i waited for afternoon class until 2 pm in the library.

class cancelled.

pissed.

is in love

2009-10-14T00:33:00.000-07:00

... thank you ...

2009-09-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

The last picture of my first journey alone. There could be fun even if it's just me. X)

Droollll .... i see weird colour. hallucination

2009-09-22T13:16:00.000-07:00

hitz fm!

2009-09-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

Merdeka .... soon

2009-09-06T13:48:00.000-07:00

Racism, it is everywhere. Why can't it just dissapear? I've been to Australia, NZ, thai, vietnam and UK. If you're a Malaysian reading this, let me convince you that Malaysia has an awful lot and it is worthy of being called home. I use to think it was crap but Malaysia is home.

I miss home.

english essay 1

2009-09-06T00:33:00.000-07:00

I wrote this for my english essay entitled 'Food Culture'. i think it is crap and maybe reading it feels like a bit of bitch slap. but at least it is real and not something i googled up. X)

The moment I got this assignment a few months ago, I knew that it wouldn’t be an easy one to finish. It wouldn’t be easy to meet my sp especially because he wouldn’t be around during my summer break and I would have to start my block rotations pretty soon. Although it took me a week to set up a proper date to meet him and 25 minutes of cycling to reach him, I can now say that I am truly glad to have attended a dinner with him in his house. I was back to a familiar place where I first met him for the first assignment. The other tough part of this assignment is really how factual a topic such as ‘Food culture’ is and it is often difficult to sit down for a long period of time just trying to get enough points out on the table to complete a 500 word essay.

Culture is something that a person has to experience with their senses. It is not something I could personally write about just by hearing from other people’s past experiences. Craig told me about many wonderful things about wedding dinners, ‘Aberdeen Morning Roll’ and the typical and exotic foods in Aberdeen, but how much of it can I actually imagine and convey in fine words? The answer would be ‘very little’. So, the following paragraph of words would be an account for all that I’ve experienced on this lovely dinner that I had.

Dinner here certainly is different from back in Malaysia. My family use to take snips of food from the same dish bowls with a pair of chopsticks. This is certainly something not typically seen in Aberdeen. The great part about chopsticks is the ability to grab something metres away, which would otherwise be impossible to reach if a spoon and fork method was used. That may be the reason why the dishes have to be passed around the table this evening. You see, eating a Chinese meal is all about being efficient. Chopsticks in Mandarin literally mean fast fingers. On top of that, we’ll never need to pass bowls around because our typical Chinese dinner table has a separate revolving part.

This evening’s dinner came out one by one. We started off with some pork and bean stew and then moved on to desert which was vanilla ice cream with cherries drenched with alcohol. The dinner ended with a cup of hot tea. I was told that dinner here usually starts with a starter like a shrimp cocktail, then a soup, the main course , dessert and finally coffee or tea. After having experienced such a wonderful meal, I feel unfortunate to say that Malaysia has a markedly different method of presenting food. In Malaysia, all the dishes usually come at about the same time and this means that our food chills out before it reaches our tummies. Desserts are not a frequent thing unless it’s a special occasion or rarely on a weekend. We’ve enough sugar in our daily meals and drinks and we have decided that desserts will only be another reason for our undiagnosed diabetes.

Dinners, no matter in which part of the world it is, is rarely about the food. It is neither about the type of utensils used nor the way we sit around a table or on a floor. It is ALL about the people. It doesn’t matter if it’s held around a round table, square table, long table or no table, people always sit next to each other during the dinner. That is the only ingredient needed to cook up a few moments of joy, comfort and sense of belonging.

my goal this year!

2009-08-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

It'll take me 4 hours to cycle to stonehaven and another 4 to cycle back. I am going to save up enough money to get a better bike before i start doing that and a helmet as well.

Hopefully i'll be able to do it end of this year or early next year when the weather is good. It'll be something i'll do happily by myself. Just to know that i can do it if i really wanted to ...

personality of a clay

2009-08-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

it feels like i'm being molded, far from being finish, and bits are rolling and losing its way. my personal mission everyday is to combat the urge to sleep. kevin is not much of kevin anymore. not so much of a gleeful smile. i wonder if this is the sign for aging. i dont know how i am suppose to react as i would. its always random, i wonder if this is depression.

i got severely drunk. although i didnt remember anything, victor told me what happened. seemed that i might have vomited loads and then i cried and hit victor a few bashful. though i cant remember any of it, i can certainly tell why i did that at the moment. it still hurts but maybe it is suppose to hurt forever. and just maybe, there is more than 1 perfect girl for me in the world. the wounds wouldn't heal until the next perfect girl comes along. maybe natalia is the only person that makes me myself. because i am myself, i think. but it doesn't matter now. study is all that matters.

greeks

2009-08-20T00:33:00.000-07:00

Vagelis is leaving for Greece on saturday. Finally someone with same brain wavelength but leaving again. Haha .... those were nice times in bobbin and that money we lost in the casino. Xp

take care vagelis. i hope we meet some day.

diary ...

2009-08-19T00:33:00.001-07:00

there is no one that i can tell this to, but i need a pause to breath out these thoughts in my head, to keep myself sane and alive.

i miss eating paus with caryn, and that is what i wish every morning when i wake up, and it still hurts as if it was only yesterday. its been a 1 year wait, i really just want to feel how it was to be with you back then for just 5 minutes. i wish if 5 minutes was just so easy.

the things i miss the most

2009-08-19T00:33:00.000-07:00

i miss malaysian sun, i miss mcdonald, i miss paus, i miss friends, i miss secondary school friends, i miss work place friends, i miss caryns hands, i miss my shabby room and watching movie in that room with my sister, i miss driving caryn, i miss being the kiddish me, i miss being myself, i miss being happy.

half the things i miss, i know i'll never get back. i miss so many more things.

2009-08-10T00:33:00.001-07:00

Luis Royo ... sorry for plagiarizing your art but I didn't have a high def piece.

My new wallpaper, suddenly remembered what natalia mentioned, and this will serve to remind me of you.

cultural differences?

2009-08-10T00:33:00.000-07:00

It's been about 5 months since I've been here. There's really nothing different about aberdeen compared to malaysia, at least nothing mind blowing enough to annoy.

Though there are some subtle things that just don't make sense here.

While we have mat rempits in malaysia delivering for pizza hut with a bike, in aberdeen, they use SMART cars or the more luxurious local cars. Does't really make sense does it? No wonder pizza here is so expansive...

What does the term 'just now' mean to you?

Answer 1 (if you're malaysian) : 5 minutes - 5 hours ago
Answer 2 (typical aberdeen people) : RIGHT NOW!

But one thing is for sure .... there are mosquitoes in UK too ... but none that beats any of them IQ and EQ in malaysia. A more primitive version of mosquito.

my first 10 hours sleep

2009-08-09T00:33:00.000-07:00

I've just woken up from a 10 hours sleep, my very first in Aberdeen.

It wasn't a peaceful sleep. I didn't sleep the whole way through. It was like watching a broken tv, series after series and all of it didn't make sense to me.

I can't put my finger down where the dreams were or how many I had, but there was one really odd one with Satvinder in it, fixing his camera. I thought that was pretty funny, he is technologically challenged even in my dreams.

And I can recall two other dreams. Both with caryn. One of it was where we use to live in vista. I was watching me, but that wasn't me, in a way as if i wanted for myself to move closer but i couldn't.

And the next dream, we were both at my grandmother's place, sitting on that red sofa in front of the tv. This time, I had control of me in this dream and as I inched closer just to get her hand, I thought, finally, it's been a year and after all this waiting. And she just said, 'We're not going to make it, i don't love you at all.' And she took out a book with pictures of us, but dusty and torn, and she threw it out.

I could feel my heart in my real body break and sucked in and tear, even while i was dreaming.

I miss that one hand.

lost and found

2009-08-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

i've lost a best friend, a friend that is in the same condition as me back in malaysia when i lost fiona as a friend.

i've lost the role of being a part of a family after i went to med school, i've forgotten what my mothers smile is like.

i've lost a great buddy who always is there to hang out with when i lost james.

i've lost an old wise friend, a friend who reminds me of the right choices in life when i lost mui how.

most of all, i've lost a big part of my mind and my heart, and the most memorable lover, the friend who is always there, fun moments, lost the ability to believe in love as it was with her, when i lost caryn.

this is the moment when i feel blessed to have gained a few new friends. people who would stand by. i am thankful i have great housemates like kien wei and victor. i wish we could stay together for the 2 years in aberdeen. i am thankful i still have one malaysian friend who makes the effort to stay in touch, haha, that's you la ellice! and of course my sister for talking with me, although a couple of hundread miles away. i miss my sister and watching lame ass show and sleeping in the same tiny room.

thank you everyone.

Maybe this is the perfect day ...

2009-07-31T13:23:00.000-07:00

My recent motto 'Do everything the right way' and so far, its working well. Yea, I've skipped 2 clinics this week but only because I failed to wake up for the first one and because of an on call later today in the evening.

I would like to say that i nailed my on call night. Not so many of a "Uh ..... " night. Useless information in my brain was finally a bit wee more useful today. So, what are the most common type of cranial lumps in paeds? hematoma in scAlP (periosteal and aponeurosis). how in the world could i have remembered that from med school years ago?!

I guess one thing is still quite true about peads attachments. No matter how much of books I could potentially digest at home, it never measures up to a day of specialty clinic. And that's mainly because everything I read, is non tpical for an adult, let alone in paeds.

There was a female specialist registrar, chinese, probably a taiwanese, bringing me along in the wards round. Damn, finally I've met with a non consultant that knows their stuff. Me and Daniel said to ourselves 'So, that's how it is to always make sense, it's just so simple'. How come WE can't do it??

Looking at the patients in the clinics, I just realized I'm at least at the top of 95th percentile for being such a lucky person. I'm not sick, nor in severe poverty, nor do i need to stick a needle in me 3 times a day such as in diabetics. Gosh I am lucky.

Today marks the end of the first week in paeds. With any luck, I'll get a bike tomorrow and do the one thing I've been wanting to do for a while now. The place where something FIRST happened in Aberdeen. I hope that place hasn't change.

learning english

2009-07-30T11:52:00.000-07:00

so this is how people may react when i attempt to learn spanish/french .... not cool.

It is a TV program of entertainment where participants are seeing a video of somebody who learn english and they are not allowed to laugh or they are beaten.

Something to laugh at, this guy is good! X)

paediatrics examination

2009-07-29T12:48:00.000-07:00

1. Warm smile (which i don't have)
2. Warm hands (during summer, but what about winter??)
3. Warm stethoscope (i dont have a stet, how!?)

tired

2009-07-25T00:33:00.001-07:00

The truth is I cant stop myself from messaging caryn. And i'm sorry if i ruined her afternoon. I really am.

I kept sending Natalia smses, but the truth is i have never said the words i want to say because it is not right for me to say simple words like 'i like you'.

The truth is, it only takes one person to say to me 'Be a good boy' from time to time, and i would.

why i blog

2009-07-25T00:33:00.000-07:00

... because I miss having someone who would listen to all my silly stories. Stories of what I do everyday, no matter how small and insignificant it may sound, or how normal my day was. I have recently realized how true the saying goes, 'It is difficult to find a good listener'. And I, of all people, knows how it drives a person crazy not being heard. I have to say that my self esteem is pretty low now. I ain't worth anyone’s time, because I can't give or help with anything, compelled with this tarnished reputation of being a relationship breaker. My heart screams no and my actions try at it's best to be valiant and true. Even the numerous messages that I send to the person that I adore has to be screened ample times, screen proof to avoid words that convey too much of affection or words that give false impression, or any impression of liking itself. I am only 21 years old and I’ve screwed up so many things. If I had avoided all these mistakes, I would’ve been rich with contentment. Simply do the right thing from now, is my plan from now on.

From now on, do the right thing, say only the truth, and no avoidance.

cycling level 3

2009-07-24T09:58:00.000-07:00

Abilities acquired:

- climb up small pavement steps, failure rate ~40%.
- dodge rubbish bin attacks 80% of the time.

Level 4:

- cycle on the road and not get hit by a car.

cycling level 2

2009-07-22T00:33:00.000-07:00

woo hoo, i can finally cycle and it only took 2 hour to learn.

despite so many people who tried teaching me things, i guess i just have to learn in by myself. but thanks to all the folks, especially those that gave me their bike as a guinea pig.

no bike was harmed but i kinda hit a few rubbish bin and some minor bruise on my legs. Xp

holiday will be over soon. i know it is stupid to say but this holiday feels lonely, even with housemates around.

Special Recipes

2009-07-19T00:33:00.000-07:00

Jamie Oliver would be proud of us.

We made do with what we had.

We cooked so often, we got bored and tried something out of this world.

Kien Wei didn't want to eat meat for dinner. So he made this weird combo platter out of apples, bananas, donuts, bread and cherry tomatoes.

He's thinking about trying to make rice yogurt tomorrow. I wonder how that would taste. Xp

I had this madness craze for stir frying lately. Yesterday was tom yam fried rice. Today i ran out of overnight rice. So i stir fried spaghetti instead. Not bad indeed,

I'm thinking about tom yam stir fry spiral pasta tomorrow. Hmm ... sounds good.

Roasted week

2009-07-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

2 recipes, lots of sun, lots of rain, lots of laughter, a bit of sadness ... and one week is over.

Failure

2009-07-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

work harder ... less blogging ... let computer ... less pictures ... sigh.

100 post then ...

2009-07-11T00:33:00.000-07:00

We just celebrated victor's and satvinder's birthday. It was a tiring day, getting the presents and to socialize, which I am hardly good at. Human chemistry is just not in me.

100 post, and still an empty cup. I miss feeling right.

O n G

2009-07-10T00:33:00.000-07:00

O n G .... more like OMG.

Feeling depressed with myself for doing so badly in exam today.

*no motivation*

57 kg

2009-07-08T00:33:00.000-07:00

i left malaysia with 65 kg of me, now i have 57 kg of it. what happened to 8 more kgs?

did the airport people lose it while i transited in hong kong or london?

i thought chocolates were meant to make people fat ... but is it?

i thought eating and then sleeping makes people fat ... but its not.

this is the record thinnest i've been.

i can count the ribs without palpating.

the pectus excavatum has never been more excavated.

proper meals maybe, but i doubt it'll help. with this many hours sitting and reading and this little sleep.

i feel thin, sleepy, tired and stupid.

composure

2009-07-07T00:33:00.002-07:00

it has taken everything i have, every single ounce of effort to forget. and it seems like i am finally picking up myself, by myself. after numerous falls and losing myself, i finally have a routine that i do to forget.

it doesn't hurt anymore to think or talk about it. but avoiding still feels much better. and i can feel that this is the last stretch that i have to run through. although it still feels like running on shattered glass, the glass pieces pierces only skin deep now.

so what if she's in seremban or malaysia or even aberdeen? i can say that convincingly now, and with an occasional grin. it's a good sign of tolerance. 7 months, that's how long it has screwed my life. maybe more if i include the time i spent alone last year.

my goal for the next 2 weeks: learn how to cycle, maybe study a bit for paediatrics and ... ta da damm!!!

LEARN SOME BASIC SPANISH!

the timing may be all messed up. but if i dun give it an effort, i'll never know if i failed just for not trying.

Caffeine

2009-07-07T00:33:00.001-07:00

Not that it keeps me awake anymore.

compulsive

2009-07-07T00:33:00.000-07:00

I should think what i write and read what i write and not publish what i didn't read twice. X(

This 2 weeks have been awful ...

I have plans for next 2 weeks already.

Irish!

2009-07-03T00:33:00.000-07:00

I was surfing at random things this evening and wondered what my name meant. I googled it and this came up:

The boy's name Kevin \k(e)-vin\ is pronounced KEV-in. It is of Irish and Gaelic origin, and its meaning is "handsome beloved".

My name's origin is Irish and I didn't even know it. Hmph ...

And out of curiosity, I googled Natalia's as well. But I already knew beforehand that it means birth, which should be from latin for 'natal'. But no ... someone had to insist it was Russian. Hmm ...

And here's what it says about Natalia:

The girl's name Natalie \n(a)-ta-lie\ is pronounced NAT-a-lee. It is of Latin origin, and its meaning is "birthday". Refers to the birthday of Christ, or Christmas.

So what does Kevina Natalie means?

2009-07-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

Looks like an alien here.

It was the nicest weather I've experienced since I've been here in Aberdeen. Summer holiday in 2 more weeks. So many of my fellow batchmates were sun bathing out in the open, waiting for their tutorial to start.

I only had half day of clinic today. So I got home and got my camera and took a stroll using the usual road i take to go to the hospital. Whitehall - Beechgroove - Bonnymuir - Westburn.

I'm not sure if its the temperature (36°C today) or if its because I never noticed it, but all the flowers are blooming today! Its a great day for pictures.

Funny place for the sunray to hit on ... on the most perfect spot ... and my eye just caught it.

The first house on the right which I pass everyday on the way to the hospital.

I think this is Jasmine. I could smell it 10 feet away from this place. The house was lovely too.

This is the nicest picture! Roses for my dear friend Ros. Haha ...

STIs

2009-06-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

I think I've seen enough strippers, sex workers, college boy, married women with sexually transmitted disease to last me a year. That was pretty tiring. Sleep.

A baby I assisted in delivery ...

2009-06-28T00:33:00.001-07:00

15th June 2009. X)

All Things TRANSFORM!

2009-06-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

Finally, people could ask me 'Have you watched Transformers 2', and I can say YES!

This is one show that was totally worth my 4.65 pounds. Heck, i would pay another 4.65 to watch it again.

The main star of the show is not megan fox .... surprised?

As all Megan Fox fans would have anticipated. This movie had plenty of scenes to cover 360 degrees of Megan Fox ... and it was good. X)

Not to mention that the Decepticons have never looked better!

And this new guy just adds all the fun of it. Finally a non leading role being developed properly.

This is the MAIN STAR of the show along with Sam. The struggle was simply the best part of the movie! This beats Frodo and his ring!

The inner child of me screaming 'i wanna be sam' ... boo hoo ...

$.$

2009-06-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

2 pairs of scissors, a wall mirror, a comb, in a bath tub. 40 minutes .... saves 13 pounds.

20 minutes walk, 2+ kilometers, 10 kg. 15 eggs for 1.5 pounds. 2 liter milk for 1 pound.

20 minutes walk to town or hospital.

movie at the vue 4.6 pounds, skip!

the things i do to save money... i miss natalia. it finally sounds right to say i miss anyone. finally...

but its all about study for now.

my neighbourhood

2009-06-25T00:33:00.001-07:00

I was so tired of studying i just had to take a stroll outside of my house. Just when i thought there's nothing interesting to shoot around here, i ended up with a few interesting pictures for the day.

This leave was almost perfect. Darn insect just had to take a nip at it.
Even simple things like this looks great. Tough luck getting this kinda scenes in Malaysia. I mean, how do you make weed and lalang look pretty?

The best shot of the day ... although it took me sometime to edit it. But it did ended up pretty nice.

Buildings like this in UK could be a church, could be an office building .... but the weirdest one in Union Street was a club inside a cathedral!! How do they afford that?

Albert Street, adjacent to our street. And bus 23 is what gets you to our house and the hospital.

Some random graffiti at the back lanes of our street.

North South East West ... this is a place for seagull to rest!

Thumbs up from Michela! I think she likes me!

unc yong?

2009-06-25T00:33:00.000-07:00

Seriously ... i am uncle yong now?? Doesn't sound cool at all.

But little leisel is so cute... congrats to my dear cousins. After being in o n g for almost a month, I feel its a great deal of joy and luck to see such a healthy baby.

moving out, moving in

2009-06-24T00:33:00.001-07:00

Yeap, its been almost a month. I can't believe I finally have internet in this new home. It's a beautiful place, the ember lights while I'm typing away. Its got this sleepy ambience that just kills the study mood.

Though i do miss the old Hillhead. It doesn't matter, the dreariness, or how depressing it is. It had everything, the food, friends next door, laughters during lunches and breakfasts, and oh of course, the girl next block. It's just great to know someone is so near although i didn't really had the guts to see her. X)

Damn, i miss kien wei. Check out the last hair cut that i gave him. Its good! I should charge ... sigh ... i miss the stonny him. And this is the guy with the pressure to make me study.

Yunn cheng took out my camera in the middle of nowhere and setted the tripod and took pictures of herself ... thats victor behind as usual spoiling pictures and the rare occasion when kienwei actually is holding a beer in his hands. I shall send this to his dad.

Why does victor like my bolster so much ... X)

This lucky bastard is in spain, probably in natalias pocket.

Die, Scruffy!

I like all things green, green bills, smell of green grass ... and dirt cheap green Carling bottles.

But .... no complaints at all about the new place ... its been great so far ... finally the goods are comin my way.

No complaints at all.

te echo de menos

2009-06-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

Internet ...

2009-06-22T00:33:00.000-07:00

Brr ... its colder without you ... quieter definitely ... more free time ... i appear in tutorials more brainless without you ... i see symmonds ong everyday and managed to answer all the management of preterm labour without you ... hooray ...

... but i miss you ... X(

2 minutes

2009-06-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

i promise myself i'll only take 2 minutes to post today. i have to get running to yhe deliovery ward after this .... so pardon me for all the typo error ... last week was a blast. i got to see natalia almost everyday befroe she left .... now that she's gone, i have so much of fre time to study.

sigh ....

2 minutes up ...

COMING SOON

2009-06-12T00:33:00.000-07:00

THE KEV is still internetless .... updates to roll out after the premier of Transformer. Loads to tell ... so ... look forward to it!

... oh yea ... and i'm still alive.

Zaragoza

2009-06-07T00:33:00.000-07:00

1 668 miles - 7 days 19 hours of walking. And then i'l have 7 days more in Zaragoza. X)
By the way ... the blue line part at the ocean, does that mean i have to swim?

Check out the driving directions ... headache ...

Driving directions to Puente de Piedra

2,422 km – about 1 day 0 hours

Whitehall Pl

1.	Head southwest on Whitehall Pl toward Whitehall Terrace	0.1 km
2.	Continue on Desswood Pl	0.7 km
3.	Turn left at Forest Rd	0.3 km
4.	At the roundabout, take the 3rd exit onto B9119/Queen's Rd	0.6 km
5.	At Queen's Rd, take the 1st exit onto A90/Anderson Dr heading to A93/Perth/Braemar/Dundee Continue to follow A90 Go through 3 roundabouts	2.6 km
6.	At the roundabout, take the 2nd exit onto A90/Stonehaven Rd heading to Perth/Dundee Continue to follow A90 Go through 3 roundabouts	98.9 km
7.	At the roundabout, take the 2nd exit onto A90/Kingsway heading to Perth Continue to follow A90 Go through 4 roundabouts	33.1 km
8.	Continue on M90	45.0 km
9.	Continue on A90 (signs for Edinburgh)	7.3 km
10.	Continue on A8000	3.9 km
11.	Take the ramp onto M9	3.0 km
12.	Take the exit onto M8 toward Livingston/Glasgow	35.8 km
13.	Continue on A8 (signs for Glasgow)	6.3 km
14.	Exit onto A725/North Rd toward E Kilbride/M74/Bellshill/Carlisle	0.3 km
15.	Take the ramp onto A725	4.6 km
16.	At the roundabout, take the 2nd exit onto the M74 ramp to A74(M)/Carlisle	0.5 km
17.	Merge onto M74	41.8 km
18.	Continue on A74(M) (signs for Carlisle)	78.6 km
19.	Continue on M6 Entering England	375 km
20.	Merge onto M1	98.2 km
21.	At junction 6a, exit onto M25 toward Dartford/M11/M20 Partial toll road	65.5 km
22.	Continue on A282 Partial toll road	5.1 km
23.	Continue on M25	6.7 km
24.	At junction 3, exit onto M20 toward Dover/Maidstone	77.2 km
25.	Exit at junction 11a	0.6 km
26.	Continue straight	1.1 km
27.	Continue straight	1.0 km
28.	Slight left	0.8 km
29.	Take the Folkestone - Calais train to Fréthun Entering France	58.6 km
30.	Continue straight	0.4 km
31.	Turn left	2.3 km
32.	Merge onto A16/E402 via the ramp to Rouen/Boulogne Partial toll road	102 km
33.	Take exit 23 to merge onto A28 toward Rouen/Le Tréport/Le Havre Partial toll road	97.6 km
34.	Continue on E402/N28 (signs for Rouen/Bihorel/N28) Continue to follow E402 Go through 2 roundabouts	11.6 km
35.	Slight left at Boulevard de l'Europe	0.4 km
36.	Slight left at Voie Rapide S III	0.1 km
37.	At the roundabout, take the 3rd exit onto N338 heading to Le Mans/Grand-Quevilly/A28/Elbeuf/Petit-Quevilly/A13	8.4 km
38.	Continue on N138	1.5 km
39.	Take the exit toward Le Mans/Caen/Elbeuf/A13/Grand-Couronne/Le Havre	0.8 km
40.	Merge onto N138	3.6 km
41.	Take the exit onto A13 Partial toll road	11.8 km
42.	Take the exit onto A28 Partial toll road	174 km
43.	Take the exit onto A11/E50 toward Tours/Paris Toll road	9.1 km
44.	Take the exit onto A28/E502 toward Orléans/Blois/Tours Toll road	85.6 km
45.	Take the exit onto A10/E05 toward Bordeaux/Tours Partial toll road	346 km
46.	Continue on A630	23.3 km
47.	Take exit 15-CANÉJAN-Cestas to merge onto A63/E70 toward Saint-Sébastien/Arcachon/Mont-de-Marsan/Bayonne	47.2 km
48.	Continue on N10	92.8 km
49.	Continue on A63 Toll road Entering Spain	65.8 km
50.	Continue on A-8 Partial toll road	25.3 km
51.	Take exit 10 toward N-1/Vitoria-Gasteiz/Iruña/N-634/Pamplona/Bilbao/A-15	0.7 km
52.	Merge onto Autovía del Norte	7.4 km
53.	Continue on N-I (signs for Tolosa/N-I/Pamplona/A-15/Vitoria-Gasteiz/Iruña)	2.7 km
54.	Take exit 445 to merge onto A-15 toward Iruña/Irurtzun/Pamplona	44.3 km
55.	Continue on AP-15 Partial toll road	14.5 km
56.	Continue on A-15	16.0 km
57.	Continue on AP-15 Partial toll road	79.5 km
58.	Take the exit toward Zaragoza/Tudela Toll road	1.1 km
59.	Merge onto AP-68 Toll road	82.7 km
60.	Continue on A-68	3.2 km
61.	Continue on A-2	2.4 km
62.	Take exit 321 toward El Pilar/N-330/Z-30	0.6 km
63.	Take exit 322A toward Zaragoza	0.7 km
64.	Keep left at the fork, follow signs for Z-30 and merge onto Av de los Pirineos	0.8 km
65.	Slight right toward Calle del Comandante Ernesto Che Guevara (signs for A-23/Las Fuentes-Torrero/Camino de las Torres/A-68/Teruel/Castellón/Alcañiz)	90 m
66.	Slight left at Calle del Comandante Ernesto Che Guevara	0.4 km
67.	Slight right at Av de los Pirineos	0.8 km
68.	Turn left at Paseo de Echegaray y Caballero	0.9 km
69.	At Glorieta Puerta del Sol, take the 4th exit and stay on Paseo de Echegaray y Caballero

Destination B: Zaragoza!

hope this works out ...

2009-06-06T00:33:00.003-07:00

My wallpaper now ...

renuka nair #1

2009-06-06T00:33:00.002-07:00

i built a table by myself today
tomorrow, i am going to conquer the world

new home

2009-06-06T00:33:00.001-07:00

77D Whitehall Place

d hotel

d weird housemates

d cavemens

THE KEV

happy birthday n farewell

2009-06-06T00:33:00.000-07:00

fun

2009-06-04T00:33:00.001-07:00

fucking hate myself. i've forgotten how to have fun. fuck the damn outings. dun even wanna try to go out anymore.

medsoc

2009-06-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

Have been looking forward to an outing for days. But now that i finally have to go out, i don't feel like it anymore. Too tired to talk to anyone. And e-mails that leave my mind all messed up.

I shall put on my best smiley face and wait the night out. And tonight I shall sleep plenty ...

Sleep, kevin! No more insomnia... please!

Sighz

2009-06-03T00:33:00.001-07:00

2 gifts down, 1 more to think about. Just a birthday present left.

Tired. Headache, feels like I'm gonna get sick soon.

Exhausted

2009-06-03T00:33:00.000-07:00

SSM report, presentation, gifts for a few friends, for farewell, for birthday, for bestie friend, shifting houses.

I'm tired. Some good news come here please.

by the way ...

2009-06-02T00:33:00.001-07:00

What's up with people inviting me to visit them in their home country? Zaragoza or Edinburgh, what are the odds of me going anywhere near there.

How about asking me out to the pub instead? Or is that my job? hmm ...

Finally done with SSM preparation for the presentation. Time to rest a while and then tweak the report.

ellice ... wat do you think about spanish??!!

2009-06-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

Doesn't this just brigthen the night up? X)

11/10 for cuteness.

Hi Kevin!! Apa Khabar?? yes!! gracias is Thanks in Spanish ^^, baik sangat!! hehehe :P I have been searching a little about malay, but it´s difficult to find a dictionary english-malayo by internet...
What you have written it looks like if you were saying goodbye forever
X´( I´m going to come back in the future to aberdeen to visit to everybody it´s living/studing here, and you will be welcome (selamat datang) to my house in Spain if you want to come to visit me. when are you leaving??. Jumpa lagi xxx

Aberdeen Seagulls Are Fucking Huge And Scary!

2009-06-01T15:33:00.000-07:00

There's even a group devoted to hating Aberdonian seagulls.

Check out the pictures, its pretty nasty gulls, thats what they are!

Here are some of the pictures from their facebook group page and the original captions.

Shoplifting bastard!

That's what they really look like.

Trators!!!!

Check out the ranks:

Phil Nickovich (University of Aberdeen)

Head Seagull Killer

Jackie Nash (University of Edinburgh)

Footdee Seagull Patroller

Claire Speirs (London)

Victim Support Officer

Talent

2009-06-01T00:33:00.003-07:00

He walks around Paris and strums to some random music. This guy rocks. I love him.

Natalia Ros Abad

2009-06-01T00:33:00.001-07:00

The only girl I like around here is going off ...

You can't help but love the messages. Adorable, it is ...

Thank you!!! I´ll finish on wednesday, it´s about sustainable development and as you can see it´s about nothing from veterinary :S and I haven´t too much idea about this topic, so I dont know if I´ll pass or not :S pfff... I would like to say goodbye before I must leave from Aberdeen on 8th of June, therefore maybe I prepare some party or something like that for saying everybody bye :´(. I´ll already tell u to come as well if finally I do something. xxx

aberdeen, warmness in winter.

2009-06-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

... guess who this is ...

2009-05-31T00:33:00.002-07:00

obsession

2009-05-31T00:33:00.001-07:00

My wallpaper for the past few weeks.

Evolved from this ...

... to dear old Southpark ...

... and then to her ...

... and now this new edited picture oh her ...

I think I spent too much of time on photoshop.

http://theblueasparagus.blogspot.com

2009-05-31T00:33:00.000-07:00

It is shots like these ...

... that makes me miss malaysia ...

... that makes me a bloody noob at a camera

... that's what i call insight

... that tells at least one story

I need more excursions and less greens in my pictures.

I think I've done just figuring out how to distract myself. X)

My new infatuation ....

2009-05-30T00:33:00.000-07:00

Kanye West - Adam Levine

And I heard 'em say
Nothin's ever promised tomorrow, today
From the Chi, Like Tim, it's a Hardaway
Till this is in the name of love, like robert say
Before you ask me to go get a job today,
Can I at least get a raise on the minimum wage?
And I know the government administer aids,
So I guess we just pray like the minister say
Allahu Akhbar an thro in some hot cars
Things we seein' on the screen not ours
But these niggas from the hood, so these dreams not far
Where I'm from the dope boys is the rock stars
But they can't cop cars without seein' cop cars
I guess they want us all behind bars, I know it, uh

Chorus:
And I heard 'em say, nothin's ever promised tomorrow, today
And I heard 'em say, nothin's ever promised tomorrow today
But we'll find a way
(Adam Levine)
And nothin' lasts forever, but be honest babe
Hurts, but it might be the only way

(Kanye)
They say people in your life for seasons
And anything that happen is for a reason
And niggas gun-clappin' and keep to squeezin'
And gran' keep prayin' and keep believin'
In Jesus, and one day that she'll see him
Till then in walk his footsteps and try to be him,
The devil is alive, I feel him breathin'
Claimin' money is the key, so keep on dreamin'
And put them lottery tickets just to tease us
My Aunt Pam can't put them cigarettes down,
So now my lil' cousin smokin' them cigarettes now
His job try to claim that he too niggerish now
Is it 'cause his skin blacker than licorice now?
I can't figure it out, sick of it now,

Chorus

(Adam Levine)
With every worthless word we get more far away
And nothin's ever promised tomorrow, today
And nothin lasts forever, but be honest, babe
Hurts, but it may be the only way

RAINBOW CONNECTION

Why are there so many
Songs about Rainbows
And whats on the other side
Rainbows are visions
but only Illusions
Rainbows have nothing to hide

Whats so amazing
That it keeps us star gazing
And what do they think we might see
Oh, someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard the voices
Well, I've heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound
That calls the young sailors
The voice might be one and the same

I've heard it too many, many, many times to ignore it
Oh, who did i think it could be
Oh, someday we'll find it

The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me (repeat)

Single vs Coupled friends ....

2009-05-29T00:33:00.002-07:00

Lately I've been having this dilemma. I have far too many friends who are not single. Yea, they're great people to hang out with during the day. They are constantly happy because they have their partners to cheer up to. They always try to listen and maybe sometimes sort out problems with me. That's all great. But when you just need a friend to drink some booze at night, they're probably too tired by then, with all the school work and keeping themselves connected to their partners.

The grass IS greener on their side, or so it seems to me.

I think I'm getting the hang of all those pointless moments when you're just single. I wanna go eat something, but then I would have to walk to ... lets say ... subway. It's a bloody far journey, it's cold and breezy, and walking alone definitely sucks. So, that leads to sitting in my room, curbing the hunger off with a hallucinatory chunk of juicy text from a book, while loading the latest Southpark on the computer.

The remainder of my single friends, are not in Aberdeen, or is worrying about SSM, or they don't drink or ... the worst yet ... they're starting to be non-single.

I guess the only real option for me left, is to try to be GAY. Maybe the gay community is more encouraging and gives a greater sense of company/brotherhood. Damn, am i dependent!

I hate myself for needing people around me, and feeling sad all this time. I'm sorry i drink as much just to forget for a little while how hurt it feels. I'm fighting it everyday now, even I need just a small moment to rest my heart. That's why i love to drink ... its a rest, a break from thinking about all that hurts.

Thanks vic and cheng ... the company was really nice ...

and should i mention also that they both have partners?

Blonde or not blonde?

2009-05-29T00:33:00.001-07:00

This is almost pornographic material ... this is porn with clothes on, this is porn with blonde hair, this is good porn, this is porn with some educational facts, this is porn but unlike porn, this is interesting porn ...

I wouldn't call this porn. But it's good entertainment.

Did IMU approve this?

2009-05-29T00:33:00.000-07:00

made my day ...

2009-05-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low

Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they were always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone

Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long & winding road

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight, tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home

You know that I've seen
Too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin' off the silver screen

My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing keeps me together at the seams

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight, tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home Sweet Home
Yeah
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home

SSM

2009-05-27T00:33:00.002-07:00

One of the things to look forward to since SSM started, going to SSM meetings and drown in claire's eyes. I wonder if anyone notice me phasing out when she talks to me? ... hmm ...

lung function

2009-05-27T00:33:00.001-07:00

I feel like my lungs are not functioning. I can breath but no air goes in. And this is how I wake up everyday now. I hate sleeping.

two

2009-05-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

why two?

- cause it takes 2 to dance
- because 2 is the most powerful divider, everything is half the price if shared by two
- we've got 2 hands, to hold 2 hands
- the most effective conversation is between 2
- loving each other takes everything we have, thus no room for more than 2
- because 1 is lonely.

Sparks * * **

2009-05-26T00:33:00.001-07:00

Great ideas always come when I'm in the oddest places, doing the oddest things

I was in the shower, washing my shampoo bottle and then i thought ...

Hmm .... bottle ... whole ... clean ... but menthol ... cool ... bottle is short ... but yet so cool ... and purposeful.

Conclusion: I have a great idea about the conclusion for my SSM report. I'll write a short summary of all the headings under the report. Each heading (intro, description, result, method, discussion) will be summed up in one sentence. That would be a great conclusion, yet reminding the reader of the gist of the whole report.

Eureka.

moms and dads

2009-05-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

Good stuff ....

Dads ...

Moms ...

template

2009-05-25T00:33:00.002-07:00

I just love this blog template and header that I've made. Its easy not to be depressed looking at it. Compared to pinkshirtz.blogspot, it's a big change. Green is a soothing color. I wonder why I've never thought that way before.

You don't lose, you don't notice.

ice n water

2009-05-25T00:33:00.001-07:00

ice n water

is a game

there is ONE ice

and alot of water

the ice will go around and FREEZE the water

and the other free water friends will run to escape the evil clutches

and then... UNFREEZE their ICED friends by touching them when ICE is off chasing someone else

I miss childhood ... nothing was a screw up then.

weirdos ...

2009-05-25T00:33:00.000-07:00

There are 2 weirdos playing golf outside of my room, at the green, while it rains, 10 celcius in the cold, with a bucket, pitch black. UK is just plain weird sometimes.

Belfast

2009-05-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

188.98 pounds, that's all that it takes. but i wouldn't have a welcome. i wish there was even a glimpse of hope. but e-mails do kill it all.

the surprising thing is ... i want to fly to belfast, even without any hope. because i miss her and it hurts so much. i miss you.

1:43 AM

2009-05-23T01:43:00.000-07:00

I cant sleep. My mind hurts, my heart hurts. You're out to play me, I know you are here to play me. Because the minute I ask you if there's a chance at all, you stopped playing completely. I know. I hate.

Why would you do that to me? Everytime you do that, i lose 3 days of sleep. Why.