the worst morning

it was a really bad morning. i woke up at 6 to make lunch, packed it and forgot to bring it to gp.

i took the bus at 750 and left my gloves somewhere at the bus station.

i reached gp and waited for the district nurse for 30 minutes and she cancelled the day for me.

so im stuck here in front of the computer and my itchy mind wanted to look at caryns blog.

now i have a picture of her and her bf stuck in my head. and its killing me.

help.

wants to get drunk

anyone up for it?

i miss ...

i miss a dear old friend whom i stayed with for many years. someone whom i ate hundreads of meals with. someone whom i've done stupid things with, drawing my back, midnight walk down to the water dispenser.

i've met many people since you but every single person felt wrong and i compare each with what we use to be. now i cant sleep or study because i cant stop thinking. and my heart feels quizzy. this sucks. 18 months without seeing you, how did i manage. i wish ....

yea ...

yay ... hopefully i'll get a new pair of reading glasses soon. dah bosan jadi buta!

study study study

5 more days to exams. 6 more days to inverness.