I learned ...

... plenty of things today. Had a really long session learning different methods of poking the patient. IV cannulation and phlebotomy with a normal syringe and a butterfly needle. We poked so many times that I can't remember the names of the procedure at the end of the class.

... that tomorrow will be the torcher's parade. That means we'll get to see lots of floats and people all dressed up. Gosh, medical students are a boring bunch. All we ever get to do is stay at home and be a bum. X( Not cool at all.

... that I am starting to stalk girls and that I should really stop doing so cause everyone’s got a boyfriend anyways. I asked Natalia what is the remedy for gull coughs. She said, 'mmm... the most efficient remedies for gull cough is or u put a plug on ur ears or u buy some shotgun and u kill to gull with it, in such a way that u will be able to observe gull won´t be able to cough again :P. I hope my remedies are helping u ;).' My thoughts, 'I'm definitely not bringing any injured animals to you!'

... that I know nothing about visual inattention and I need to know about that. OSCE was terrible today. I need to learn about confrontation test ala scottish flavour and learn to perform respi examination in less than 5 minutes. That applies to all the systems anyways.

... that it cost 20 pee to sms back to malaysia, which is kinda stupid! Calling is way cheaper. And I love Renuka’s phone plan.

... I am a lousy soon, grandson and brother. I don't understand why I can't do simple things. Or why I don't have the desire to communicate with my family.

... that I need to stop seeing pictures of the past or of the people I once loved. It’s useless, pointless and it kills you. So, stop doing it, you idiot.

99 cranes

99 cranes in the waste bin, these cranes will not have an owner, much unwanted, just like me. This was suppose to be a birthday gift. No longer true.

I won't disagree

Ignorance is bliss
You'd always hear me say
But at times you can't deny
Those eyes lookin' your way

Let me begin by saying what I mean
It's a crime against the heart you know
To be somewhere in between

Well don't be shy
I've got an open heart and hand
And I just might have to confess just where I stand

'Cause lately you make me weaker in the knees
And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
Take me away to places I ain't seen
They say you've got a hold on me'
And I Won't Disagree

Rock a bye my baby
Don't be blue tonight
Oh I'm on my way
And I'm gonna make it right

'Cause I've got the feeling
You'll be needing love
And of all the lonely hearts
You're the one I'm thinkin' of

I've been told it's gonna take an iron hand
To break the mold and stand above all of the rest

Well lately you make me weaker in the knees
And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
Take me away to places I ain't seen
They say you've got a hold on me'
And I Won't Disagree

I'll be thinking of that evening
When there's nothing for me to do
And I'll be wondering if by some slim chance
You're wondering too

Lately you make me weaker in the knees
And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
Take me away to places I ain't seen
They say you've got a hold on me'

Oh lately you make me weaker in the knees
And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
Take me away to places I ain't seen
They say you've got a hold on me'
And I Won't Disagree

Everyday

i wonder why anyone would give me this glint of hope. and demand me to dive out this flame, to perish all hope. why?

i hate checking my email everyday and receiving mails that i know will burn my heart into ashes. i don’t get anything other than friendship mails that asks if i'm ok, if i've moved on. no i haven't but why care when it’s obvious i'm just a minute distraction, an obligatory 'how do you do' friend. it shatters my heart every morning. and i have to force myself to face the day with a smile. isn’t any easy as the time passes by, as i know new friends, as i walk the streets, certainly isn’t easy seeing ghosts everywhere and just hoping.

silly is what i feel. there’s nothing to gain from all this. honestly, i can’t remember any day that i haven’t been thinking about it. and it just puts me off food, talking, friends.

i use to have loads of confidence in myself. i thought i could read people’s actions but now i feel lost in translation, but yet with a great desire to interpret the message, often thinking in my favour. but not getting it quite right.

ray said it would take someone half the time of their relationship to forget someone. is it going to take 2 years for me? i absolutely wouldn’t mind the two years. but could anyone assure me it’ll only take 2 years? it’s been 4 months and it still kills, everyday.

A typical conversation in Aberdeen

Conversation #1

Victor: An apple a day keeps the doctor away!
Kumar: Wei, later we cannot be doctor wei!
Victor: Eat one apple cannot graduate, so we eat two apple la!

Conversation #2

Stranger: Fit like?
Scottish wannabe (us): Nae bad.

Greeting #1

Kish: I was born in Sri Lanka but I stay in Qatar and I was the head prefect there. And I’m not from Tamil Tiger.

Greeting #2

Satvinder: Hello, I’m Satvinder, but you can call me Sat.

Greeting #3

Renuka: Hi, my name is Renuka but you can call me Ray.
Dr. McLay: Like death ray, stingray?
Renuka: X-ray! (said with a cheeky look)

Conversation #3

Kevin: Aisyah!
Victor: Aisyah!
Kumar: Aisyah!

Conversation #4

Victor: ..... HMO
Kumar: Eh, we shit in toilet 3 of us, need HMO ar?