lost and found

i've lost a best friend, a friend that is in the same condition as me back in malaysia when i lost fiona as a friend.

i've lost the role of being a part of a family after i went to med school, i've forgotten what my mothers smile is like.

i've lost a great buddy who always is there to hang out with when i lost james.

i've lost an old wise friend, a friend who reminds me of the right choices in life when i lost mui how.

most of all, i've lost a big part of my mind and my heart, and the most memorable lover, the friend who is always there, fun moments, lost the ability to believe in love as it was with her, when i lost caryn.

this is the moment when i feel blessed to have gained a few new friends. people who would stand by. i am thankful i have great housemates like kien wei and victor. i wish we could stay together for the 2 years in aberdeen. i am thankful i still have one malaysian friend who makes the effort to stay in touch, haha, that's you la ellice! and of course my sister for talking with me, although a couple of hundread miles away. i miss my sister and watching lame ass show and sleeping in the same tiny room.

thank you everyone.