Single vs Coupled friends ....

Lately I've been having this dilemma. I have far too many friends who are not single. Yea, they're great people to hang out with during the day. They are constantly happy because they have their partners to cheer up to. They always try to listen and maybe sometimes sort out problems with me. That's all great. But when you just need a friend to drink some booze at night, they're probably too tired by then, with all the school work and keeping themselves connected to their partners.

The grass IS greener on their side, or so it seems to me.

I think I'm getting the hang of all those pointless moments when you're just single. I wanna go eat something, but then I would have to walk to ... lets say ... subway. It's a bloody far journey, it's cold and breezy, and walking alone definitely sucks. So, that leads to sitting in my room, curbing the hunger off with a hallucinatory chunk of juicy text from a book, while loading the latest Southpark on the computer.

The remainder of my single friends, are not in Aberdeen, or is worrying about SSM, or they don't drink or ... the worst yet ... they're starting to be non-single.

I guess the only real option for me left, is to try to be GAY. Maybe the gay community is more encouraging and gives a greater sense of company/brotherhood. Damn, am i dependent!

I hate myself for needing people around me, and feeling sad all this time. I'm sorry i drink as much just to forget for a little while how hurt it feels. I'm fighting it everyday now, even I need just a small moment to rest my heart. That's why i love to drink ... its a rest, a break from thinking about all that hurts.

Thanks vic and cheng ... the company was really nice ...

and should i mention also that they both have partners?